I think that you better get out of that blue funk. Things get better with time, but you've got to be willing to help. You're out of the dubs, now go on with your life. It's never to late to start.
Being an ex-JW is only one of many problems. You act like it's just holding me back. It may be, but there is a lot more going on than just that. I have no friends, I'm going through a divorce and was forced to move back in with my parents. They don't celebrate anything, so here I am. I used to have a decent job and an apartment, because of my wife, all that is gone. I'm in a new state now, and there are no jobs here. I went from making $10-14 an hour(depending upon commission) to making $7.25 at McDonalds.
So excuse my pessimism.